A letter of thanks

Tomorrow is my last day. I have spent the last couple days at work saying good bye, saying take care, saying thank you for the lovely gift and collecting many long warm hugs.  This experience has brought me so much more than I thought it would and I am leaving becuase its just not for me anymore. It doesn’t feel right to stay, even though I have had incredable meaningful experiences.  I have put so much attention into what I was doing with patients, I have learnt so much about health/skills and more importantly about myself and connection. Its a chapter I will always cherish and can’t help but feel waves of tears move through me after each goodbye.  My patients taught me how to be a nurse. I wanted to be the health care professional that deeply cared and connected and from my experience of ending this chapter, this is what I see in others eyes reflecting back at me while thanking me for what I have done for them. I have so much more to learn, yet when I look at it all in the bigger picture I am amazed at what I have created just by choosing and acting on what felt right for me.  I have said a lot of your welcomes but really I should be thanking them. Most have welcomed me in their homes everyday and have put their trust in me, they have shared fears and dreams and have had me giggling in moments where I really needed to laugh and soften.  I experienced life in here out there on a huge palate mixed with many many shades and colors.  There were some days that were not so much fun and some people who challenged me while they were struggling with their own movement in their own bodies. I was many a time a loading dock where some would unleash their fustrations. I learnt quickly and still am what boundries are and how to express them in ways that respect the human condition and human potential. For myself first and then for them.  I have come face to face with many aspects of myself.   When it rains and shines at the same time the universe creates a rainbow that when you look at it you can’t help but feel warm inside and excited. Well this experience kind of feels the same, like the opposite forces that are coexisting are there creating something so amazing.   I showed up. For better or for worse I showed up.   So tomorrow I will celebrate my last page in this chapter and no doubt will have more to write as I let go and create more space for my next chapter.  So I secretly say thank you deeply to all the patients who have touched my life and taught me how to love and take care of my body and my self and who taught me that we all need support as we become more. Supporting ourselves and allowing others to offer support to us. With much much RIG XO

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1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Crowing Crone Joss
    Jul 20, 2011 @ 01:21:28

    what a beautiful ‘goodbye’ to this part of your journey.
    walk in beauty.

    Reply

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